30 Day Core Challenge

Day 1: today starts my 30 day plank challenge. Instead of following the January resolution trend, I decided to start the month before working on building a stronger core. This month I'm not only working to build a stronger physical core but also want and need to build a stronger spiritual core. For me this means eliminating things that don't honor God. For me one of these things is Facebook. I have grown to have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. I love seeing pictures of friends and family and I love sharing pics as well but I hate the feelings I have after spending time on Facebook. For me it's not only a thing that at times makes me feel bad about my self but it is something that is stealing my attention from the things that are important in my life, Addyson and Andy. So today begins my Facebook fast. 

Day 7: so far so good...this week I was faced with some major anxiety challenges but facing them head on.  Completed all my core challenge days so far and spent time with my God. It's no wonder that I'm facing an increase in OCD triggers...satan knows I'm getting serious about building a stronger physical and spiritual core. I'm working harder. I'm so thankful for a God and friends who stick by me! 

When I was in grad school one of my professors taught us about anxiety by beginning class with a mouse trap for each student. He then showed us how to disengage the mouse trap without it pinching our fingers. We all had to try to unset it without getting pinched. It was the best visual explanation for what anxiety feels like. We knew how to disengage the trap but were all afraid to actually do it. That is anxiety! In moments of anxiety I know what to do to stop it but I  let fear override my knowledge. Kind of funny how even with all my social work knowledge I can help everyone else withtheir  "stuff" but struggle with snapping out of my own issues. I am comforted by knowing it is a process. 

I feel good about the way the Facebook detox is shaping my journey. To be honest, I think my smart phone has become a chain that has me in captivity to so many things that distract me. So each moment this week that I want to get on Facebook I have gone to my bible app. Psalm 94 has been a source of strength for me this week. "When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your unfailing love, Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy. "(Psalm 94:18, 19 NIV)

Living fully present in the moment.