Starbucks to the rescue

As I type this on my iPhone I'm sitting in a parking lot in my car. Starbucks in the cup holder and a sick tired baby in the back seat sleeping. After the second allnighter awake with a sick baby in an attempt to not loose my mind I jumped in the car with addyson and went on a ride. Before even pulling out of our complex she was asleep and I began to wonder why didn't I do this at 2 am? It always seems that craziness doesn't happen singly in our family...it comes in multiples. This week my hubby has been at senior high camp and of course that's when areas hits at work, you come home from work to find your babysitter crying because she and her boyfriend roke up, dealing with insurance problems and to top it off baby gets sick. It's never just one thing...always multiple things that try to pull me out of the light and into a dark place. The dark place is accompanied by mommy guilt, self pity, anger, impatience, unmet expectations of others, frustration and disappointment. Surprisingly The Lord kept me from vacationing in the darkness this week. With my focus more on Him and praying without ceasingm my week was spent mostly in the light and choosing to be fully present in the moment.